[Lucky to be alive? Oh boy. He feels like he's about to unpack so much here. But, it has to be done. So deep breath in and then out, he decides he's ready. He is ready for any of this.]

I think it might help if I hear what happened before. I know you're scared of me hating you but I think you have to think about if that matters more or if he does.

[What a terrible place to be in honestly.]